Archive for June, 2007

Now Queer This: Finale

By Troy Williams

Krcl_nqt_finallogos_1_5All things end.  And on July 11th, KRCL’s Now Queer This will be wrapping up its frenetic, over-the-top run.  We’ve had an absolute blast.  Over the past 16 months our all-volunteer team of djs, punks, activists and actors have introduced Utah to the world of tranny slam poets, cutting-edge queer theorists and gay zombie porn.  We’ve explored the anti-assimilationist rants of radical “political queers” as well as the deviant queercore music scene.  We’ve satirized the consumer-obsessed culture of the Vapid Lovelies and also launched the career of Sister Dottie S Dixon, the past president of the Spanish Fork PFLAG (and the proud Mormon mother of her gay son). People have been asking why the series is concluding after building so much momentum.  The simple reason is that I’m moving on to new projects.  Frank Feldman and I are now finishing post-production on our documentary, Natural Family Values, which highlights the battle over Kanab’s anti-gay family resolution.  The film demands all of our attention as we prepare for future screenings and festivals. The time to wrap NQT now feels right. 

But what about Radio Queer Utah?  KRCL’s support of the LGBT community remains solid.  Concerning Gays and Lesbians aired for over 20 years, back when producing a gay radio show in Utah really took guts!  Long before Bravo or Logo (and every other network wanting to cash in on the gay demographic), KRCL led the way with fearless LGBT programming. That’s significant when you consider that Logo is owned by Viacom, who in the 2004 elections, gave the majority of their political donations to Republican candidates.  Yes, when you financially support gay programming on Logo and MTV you are also funding anti-gay Republicans.  Isn’t that great?   Viacom commodifies our culture and then markets it back to us — after which they hand over their profits to men who work to restrict our civil liberties. You gotta love capitialism! It is important to have an independent media that doesn’t just view gays as a market to be exploited.   

In 2004 I was hired to produce KRCL’s RadioActive.  We had the ambitious goal of weaving progressive social justice issues together into one program. The driving philosophy behind RadioActive, then and now, is to transcend identity politics and recognize the inter-connectedness of all our diverse causes. Queer topics take their place along with race, class, gender and environmental issues. Listeners who tune in to talk about the Iraq war one day, might find themselves calling to talk about transgender politics the next. We bring visionary activists, artists and academics daily to the Utah airwaves to discuss how we build a more inclusive, just and sustainable world.  It’s a great gig and the most fulfilling work I’ve ever done.  And I plan to stick around as long as they’ll have me.   

In 2006, NQT was really born out of my queer existential crisis.   I wanted to better understand what being queer meant to me – what the limits of gay identity was – and what the untapped potential of our community could be.  I was fascinated by the divide between assimilationist gays and the more radicalized elements of political genderqueers.  So I pitched Now Queer This to KRCL and was given the green light.

Our creative team was interested in playing with gay discourse. We particularly wanted to dislodge the prevailing victim meta-narrative that seemed embedded in gay identity. LGBT themed films too often have the obligatory gay bashing or suicide attempt – it’s become cliché and in many instances, kitsch.  If group narratives provide a template through which we construct our personal identity, then what kind of people are we becoming? Consider the message of Brokeback Mountain: American culture is so cruel that if you are gay you will either be killed or live alone without love in a trailer shack.  Depressing, right?  If a queer emo-kid is contemplating suicide, that’s a pretty dark message to throw at her. While I do believe there is great value in aesthetically exploring themes of oppression and violence, I also believe there has been a huge imbalance in our stories. Queer-positive narratives are also needed to help foster a healthy self-image. Yes, there is vicious bigotry in our culture, but there is also a tremendous amount of beauty, acceptance and possibility. Internalized victim narratives won’t win our social acceptance. But owning and recognizing our worth?  That will cause a revolution.  And hence the need to create queer-positive art and media. 

For me, being queer is about co-creating a new world. It’s about defying the status quo and establishing a critical resistance that will recognize marginalized voices.  It’s about placing our dissent in the very center of public debate.  It’s about raising one helluva ruckus.  NQT helped me develop a solid understanding of my identity as a gay activist.  And now I’m ready to move on.

Some have expressed concern over the fate of Sister Dottie S. Dixon – whose regular social commentaries (and cookie salad recipe) has become a beloved part of NQT.  I’m pleased to announce that she will remain a regular on KRCL with her very own weekly short feature.  Dottie will also soon have her own blog here on Queergnosis.  Keep checking for more details. We will also be moving all NQT podcasts, transcripts here to Queergnosis. And remember that queer and LGBT issues will always remain an integral part of RadioActive (M-F, noon to 1pm, 90.9 FM or krcl.org).

I want to thank KRCL for their unyielding support of our community. I’d also like to thank our regular contributors, Frank Feldman, Justin Strange, Charles Lynn Frost, Chris Howard, James Lancaster, Brikena Ribaj, Josh Moon, Marina Gomberg, Nick James, Aaron Cloward, David Luna, Chris Lemon, and Dan Tham. And a gracious thanks to Senator Chris Buttars, whose hysterical anti-gay tirade kicked off every episode.  And finally, thanks to all of you who listened, engaged and shared your support. My best is yet to come. 

Live Dangerous Lives

By Troy Williams   

The following is an excerpt from a speech at the Utah Pride political rally on June 2, 2007.

We stand together in solidarity to show all of Utah that we are a vibrant, passionate, powerful part of this state.  We are the Queer Children of Zion and we are here to change the world!   

We are part of a global grassroots movement that is sweeping across the planet.  All over the world, a wave of change is transforming entire nations.

Denmark, Norway, Sweden, Finland France, Germany, Canada, Hungary, Britain, Israel – all have modified their laws to protect queer civil liberties. Spain, Australia, New Zealand, South Africa and many others are embracing their queer children.   

The wave is moving and it cannot be stopped.   

The energy of our collective lives is radically moving our planet toward greater freedom, greater liberty and greater justice.   

In 1776 a group of white male property owners declared that all men were created equal – and they had the right to life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. 

Not all Americans enjoyed these rights – but the words reverberated in the soul of every American.  They rang and sang and danced in the hearts of our people until the contradiction was too great and we finally said NO! Black people will not be slaves in America! 

After the Civil War, social justice movements emerged everywhere. The labor movement fought for the 8-hour workday. The Suffragettes demanded that women have the right to vote.

In the 60′s we experienced another surge in social consciousness.  The women’s movement ignited a nation.  The Vietnam War saw the emergence of peace activists. Civil rights leaders took to the streets and demanded an end to segregation.

The nation was alive with a passion for justice.   

In 1969 queers at the Stonewall Inn yelled, "Gay is Good" and started a riot that ignited the modern gay liberation movement.   

We stand on the shoulders of dangerous men and women who rejected the status quo – These ill-behaved activists knew how to agitate. They knew how to disrupt.  Their goal was not to acquiesce to power – but rather to dismantle systems of domination.

And we still have work to do.  Sexism, racism, and classism still hold a tight grip on the American psyche.  We are still struggling against powers that believe that subjugation through domination is the natural order. 

Dominator ideology works to divide society between the rulers and the ruled. This is the old way of thinking.  We are here to create new ideas and new alternatives to Domination. 

Our intent is to build a co-operative, sustainable, global community that protects and provides the freedom and liberty of all people.  Our intent is to live in harmony with the earth, to cultivate balanced gender equality and above all, demand that women, queers and people of color, share in political, social and economic power.   

This is why they fear and hate us.  We refuse to perpetuate their exclusive right to rule. 

Through patriarchy, Dominators have abused women the world over. In the name of Manifest Destiny, Dominators justified the theft of this land from Native populations.  In the name of “free market capitalism”, Dominators have ravaged our planet’s natural resources for corporate profit. In the form of imperialism, Dominators invaded and continue to occupy a sovereign nation. And under the banner of “Family Values”, Dominators skillfully demonized queer citizens for political gain. 

This is the dominator model of patriarchy.  This is the prevailing world-view of Mormons, Right-Wing Christians, Neoconservatives, and sadly still, many Americans. The soul of our great nation is dying.  But we are here to offer another path.   

First we must see beyond our own issues.  I strongly believe that queers will never obtain equality in a world that subjugates and devalues women.   

Today reproductive choice is under assault.  The “Pro-Life” movement works to ban abortions, while at the same time they scheme to eliminate access to contraception and comprehensive sex education – the two things that are proven to reduce unwanted pregnancies.  Gayle Ruzicka and Pro-Lifers lie when they say they want to save the unborn.  What they really want is the continued subordination of women under patriarchal rule.   

Women’s issues are queer issues!   

Today our planet is facing a severe climate crisis.  What good is it if we finally gain equality if we don’t have clean air, fresh water and a healthy planet to live on?   

Environmental justice is a queer issue!  

Today politicians and pundits vilify an entire population of undocumented laborers comprised of men and women who are desperate to feed their families.  Our nation grows fat and wealthy from their hard work. 

Immigration is a queer issue!
 

Today a rogue president has lied us into a war that has butchered hundreds of thousands of innocent civilians and displaced over 2 million Iraqis who have fled their homeland. The poorest of our nation are recruited to fight and die so that America can control the oil that belongs to another people.   

The Iraq War is a queer issue!
   

We must fight not just for our own cause, but for the universal liberty of all humankind.   We must stop asking other people to be our allies and we must become allies ourselves.   

This is the work that is before us – these are the gifts that we have to offer.  We are a dynamic life force here to help usher in the next phase of our social evolution.   

Be rowdy upstart revolutionaries and live dangerous lives.  Rise up and never rest until all people are free to enjoy prosperity, freedom and happiness.   

We are here to liberate and empower humanity.  To paraphrase wise Hopi elders: We Are The Queers We’ve Been Waiting For.

I am honored to be numbered among you.  Thank you. 

“Senator Hatch — How Do You Sleep At Night?”

By Troy Williams

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I’m mostly a pacifist with the intent for peace, but every so often my warrior side comes out looking for a fight.  Particularly when I run into men of power who support policies that oppress others – and then I cut loose. Like the time I ran into Mormon apostle Russell M. Nelson.  We were in the Smith’s parking lot right after he had announced the Church’s support for the Federal Marriage Amendment. He had just been sealed to his second wife in the Temple – making him a polygamist in the Mormon heaven — and he had the audacity to endorse an amendment to our Constitution that would define marriage as “one man married to one woman”?  So I got in his face and denounced him as a fraud and a hypocrite.  All to the dismay of my best buddy who was with me (and who is himself the gay son of a Mormon GA). 

Of course my verbal thrashing didn’t do anything to sway the man (he is, after all, self-deluded into believing he is an actual apostle of Jesus).  But polite, friendly discourse wouldn’t persuade him either. So was it better then to say nothing? 

Two weeks ago I was again shopping at Smiths and found myself alone in the organic food aisle with none other than Senator Orrin Hatch.  I had that moment of, “God – that’s Hatch!  Should I continue shopping or do I take a moment and rebuke him?” After all, it’s not everyday we common folk shop next to the yahoos who are fucking up our country.  So I reached out my hand.  “Senator Hatch, your support of President Bush and this war has been an absolute disaster.” 

And then we threw down.

He politely replied, “Thousands of terrorists are in America plotting our destruction.” I countered, “Then why on earth are we in Iraq?”  Hatch insisted that Al Qaeda was operating there prior to 911. He explained in his condescending tone that he sits on the Senate Intelligence Committee and therefore knows more than me. “As a citizen I knew Iraq didn’t have WMDs – how could I know what you didn’t?”  I started to explain how UN Weapons Inspector Scott Ritter debunked the intelligence but Hatch cut me off, “Ritter is full of crap.”  With out skipping a beat I responded, “Scott Ritter was right and you where wrong and now tens of thousands of innocent people have been murdered!” 

“We haven’t kill them…they are killing each other.” 

“Because we destroyed their country!” 

“Saddam had bio-chemical weapons.” 

“We sold them to him.” 

“You have your information wrong…”

I had no patience for his talking points.  I’m determined to just give him an earful.

“How could you support warrantless wiretaps?” 

“That was blown out of proportion…”

“This administration has condoned torture!”

“No they haven’t.”   

“Dick Cheney outed an American spy!” 

“Well, there have been some mistakes – but you are misinformed…”

“The Old Testament demanded an eye for an eye.  After 911 you went for a whole body for an eye – but it was the wrong body!” 

His very Mormon wife rolled up with the cart and seeing the nature of our debate, obediently backed away.  I was on a roll with no intent to stop.

“You no longer have credibility! Bush no longer has credibility! You have been dead wrong about everything…”

At this point he was through with me.  And in truth, I had been a rowdy ass punk.  He concluded,  “There is no point talking to you — I know you represent a growing number upset about the war – but we can’t talk anymore.”

As he walked away I delivered my final rebuke: 

“The blood of thousands of innocent people are on your hands – I don’t know how you sleep at night!”   He rolled his cart away and I stood alone, tremendously pleased with myself.   “That felt good!”  I rushed home to write everything down. 

In reflection, I do believe Hatch was kind of sincere. Arrogant, yes — but sincere.  These men believe their own hypnosis.  Their reality is crafted by consensus.  If enough men repeat the lie, then it becomes truth. But Hatch was right about one thing — I wouldn’t listen. Some may criticize me for being a dick and they would be right.  And I could care less.  Reason and rational discourse have no value with these men.  And we Americans have become far too passive.  Fuck that.  We need to start kicking some shit around.  We need to get angry.  These men are killing our planet.  They are destroying our country.  And Democrats are spineless cowards who are unwilling to use their power to rein in these violent warlords.  They are equally complicit in this prolonged war. 

Despite my rant Hatch remains solid in his conviction. Of course.  Despite the daily carnage, Hatch still stands by our decision to invade and occupy.  The wellbeing and prosperity of our country trumps the misery and despair of another. Neither reasoned or passionate discourse will move him from that position.  Is it better then to say nothing?  What are our alternatives in a world gone mad?  I don’t have an answer to that. I just believe it is our moral duty to confront power – to get in their face – and to let them hear our outrage.

With that, I don’t advocate violence of any kind.  I don’t share Hatch’s devotion to Old Testament deities.  I don’t believe killing brings peace.  But I do believe the time for polite discourse has passed.  I just pray that in time, reason and outrage will work in tandem to restore some sanity to our war-loving nation.  I hope the pride we celebrate this week will inspire queers everywhere to rise up against power that dominates.  I hope we will always in stand in defense of those who are marginalized and for those who suffer.  And I hope Hatch will never again find peace in a Utah grocery aisle. 


Troy Williams

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